Wednesday, December 9, 2009

It happens.....

I knew it will end up like this......
Being honest and helping others......
it will lead to more trouble.......
when I told the honest truth and didn't lied......
even thought it was nothing......
I'm still being hated........
Its like my past keep coming back.....
FUCK!!!!
HAIZ......
==

Monday, December 7, 2009

Quiet pist for lots of reasons.... XD

Damn...... making the wrong choices and doing it in the worst time........

FUCK!!!!!






  1. Pist for waking up early.......


  2. Pist for repeating the same mistake as before...


  3. Mad for having emotions......


  4. Furious for not being able to solve it.....


(Lots More.......)



AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 4, 2009

The sohai

that's me....... I'm the sohai.....
haiz ==
doing sohai things again....
sure will end up like fuck up shit ==
Deng!!!!!!!
life just gets dull and dull ==

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Open day on 5th of DEC

E-major having an open day on this Saturday.....
preparation for open day is hell!!!
T_T
many work to do!!!!
swt....
but I have to admit is better than staying at home.....
everytime reach home like cannot open eyes.....
but I still want to online XD
This is deadly!!!!
Hope can go out soon!!!!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Rainy Mid Day Dream

This story is about a 9th grade high school boy, this 15 year old boy is call Zen. He grew up with nothing; his mother pass away while giving birth to him, abandon by his father and raised by his sick grandmother. Soon after he started high school, his grand mother passed away and he have to start depending on his own to survive in the real world. The other students bullied him and looked down on him cause he have nothing in his life, he was truly alone.

This is how the Story starts... Rainy Mid Day Dream~
Zen never had any friends, he is always bullied and return home with many injuries. Due to always being beaten up, his heart was closed and he started to believe that the world is nothing but a world of hell. One day while walking around the school ground, he was attacked by some bullies. He got beat up tilled he has no energy to get up on his own to feet. Usually no one will come to help Zen but on that memorable day in Zen's life he met Ell, Ell was the only person that shown Zen any kindness. He was never cared for other than his grandmother. Ell treated his injuries and brought his to see the schools nurse.
The next day, Zen and Ell started talking and hanging out with each other, Ell was truly Zen first and only friend. Zen never had so much fun in his life. Someone to listen when is sad or happy. Someone that cared for him. Zen was a talented poet and would always write something beatiful for Ell. As days passes and as they got closer and closer with each other, Zen heart started to open up again. They started dating and started falling for each other. Zen truly change and seems more lively. After awhile, the other kids stop picking on him and started to treat him as an equal.
One day while going out on a date with Ell, a well known gangster boss, called Ash sets his eyes on Ell and and wanted her to be his girl. Ash sets out his gang to kill Zen and bring back Ell to him. While Zen was about to gave Ell a present, the thugs started attacking Zen and tried to drag Ell away him. Zen fought and protected Ell. Zen shield her from the thugs and take the full beating. While being beat up, the police came and the gang started run. While Ell thought everthing was over and wanted to thank Zen for protecting her, she started crying while realizing that Zen was protecting her even after he has died from the beating.
After a few days, Zen's body was finally buried. Ash and his gang was caught and was give 10 years in prison. When after all the chaos was sattle, Ell remember that she was give a gift by Zen. When she opened it, it was a photo album, pictures of all the good times they had together. The photo album contains 3 poems. While going throught the album, tears started to fall.
(If this is a anime video, you can see Zen's spirit huging Zen and trying to comfort her.)
In the first page, the first peom was:
You're the star that brightens up my night,
and the reason how I make it here,
While my world was full darkness and you were my light,
in this album will you the reason why, my DEAR.
In the center on of the album, the second poem was:
I look into the night sky,

and I'll tell you what I see,

I saw stars that looks like your eyes,

and how beautiful they are to me.
Finally in the back page, the final poem that Zen wrote her was:
With the passing of every single day,
I wonder do you have clue?
That there is something that I've been wanting to say,
Ell, I Love You~
P/S: No matter how far we are apart, as long as im in your thoughts, I'll remain in your heart.
(Yo! I know my story making is not good but wanna know how bad it is. XD I know it is abit dull and boring but just leave some comment so I'll know how to improve ^^ I just want honest comment plz)
Tnx
Btw, everything is Original

Feel like making stories XD

I suddenly feel like making up stories after watching lots of animes....
all tnx to Xing Yao, my mind is now 24hr thinking about anime....
I borrowed lots of anime CDs from him cause I'm always bored at home,
I been watching non stop and I'm some how got an urge to make my own story
:P

Bored....

I'm not really a blogger type
cause I always type out crap
but I'm feeling bored
and
just feel like typing more crap out
XD
^^

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

My mind.....

Lately, I keep think about the past.....
Always distracted,
always lose track in what I'm doing.....
Maybe I should drive for awhile......
Yesterday, I almost crashed the car.... 2 times =.=
Weird....... I feel like I forgot something,
something important....
ah!!!!
Its like my mind is searching every piece of memories I have,
Its like playing back memories from the day I could remember....
Major Headache!!!

My dreams ended

It has been a few days that I've been able to sleep peacefully again,
even the dreams I have showed me the face of my love ones,
but I'm glad to be able to sleep again,
is this a good sign?

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I need It!!!!


I freaking wish I can have this car!!!!


Nissan GT-R R35 V-Spec
FUCK!!!!
I will be anyone's dog if can have a car like this!!!
AHH!!!!

My dreams.....

Lately, I have been dreaming,
dreams that remind me of my past......
people who I have not meet for a long time,
and faces that have been gone......
I once dreamt of a dream that I was looking for a long lost friend.....
I look till the end of the earth and couldn't find him....
when I was about to give up....
He appear infront of me and ask me;
"Yo man, its been awhile, how have you been"
that moment, I could swear I was crying and smiling in sleep.....

Friends comes and go.....
We live and we die....
but memories we share is always with us.....
Friends I consider my brothers and sisters,
hope you are enjoying life.
For those who are no longer hear,
We miss you deeply and hope you rest well....
R.I.P


Hope you can forgive me....
Please watch over me, hope to make you proud.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Damn Confuse.....

Ahh!!! Don't know what I want!!!
I still think about the same person everyday
but the feeling for her is fading........
but I only wish to be with her........
T.T
Now, the feeling is growing onto someone else but.....
I don't want to be with that person!!!
because, I know if I fall for this person,
I will be hurt like I was a year ago!!!
T.T
Ahh!!!
Now I sound like a playboy!!!
Deng!!! !@#$

Saturday, August 8, 2009

SMILEEE!

Hey ho!

Finally updated your blog stuff for you already! You lazy ass!
Your links n all!~ SAY TQ!
:DDDD

yes yes i'm too free.

I'M GONNA "FORGET" TO BRING YOUR DOT HACK BOOK HOME!!
Wakakkakakkakaka...!!~

loves,
`natalieeee!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Torn Up Inside

I've resurrected to my previous self.....
back to the time when I smile for every negative emotion I have,
but this time is a lil different,
every second that passes by
I can feel a lil part of me is being torn apart.
When I finally start to feel more emotions and do what my heart wants to,
I was scold for being sad and depress,
and was also ask to be resurrected back to my hollow self.
As I know,
emotions are not just happiness, anger and love....
we also have sadness and depression,
now I'm just wearing a mask with a smile,
with this mask,
all I can only feel anger, sadness and depression.
But most of the time,
motionless....
I don't understand the reason you teach us to be real?
If you wanted me to push my emotions aside,
when finally I found the missing parts of heart,
the pieces of happiness, love and joy.....
Emotions helps to create other emotions,
such as happiness will cause sadness,
and the sadness will take time to heal back to happiness,
but you didn't give me the time and just want me to be happy 24hr.
This time I'm not only emotions,
I'm losing me indentity.....
I'm becoming someone who want to pick a fight with anyone.
I'm feeling so torn up!!!
You never knew who I use to be,
So now you will slowly start to see,
The demon sleeping deep inside of me,
Turning me back to who I used to be.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Over You (Love the lyrics)

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

The Night I look at the stars.

The day before yesterday,
I stay up until 5am,
I was thinking about what to do and started to write some stuff that pop in my head,
I wrotes loads off stuff and only decided to post one now in my blog:

I look into the sky,
and I'll tell you what I see,
stars that looks like your eyes,
and how beautiful they are to me.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

About Me

Name: Benjamin Heng Wee Keat
Chinese Name: 王伟杰 (Wang Wei Jie)
DOB: 10th April 1993
Horoscope: Aries
Zodiac Sign: Rooster
Birthplace: Gombak, Kuala Lumpur
Current Location: Sunway SPK Damansara
Height: 7ft 10inch
Race: Chinese
Piercings: Ears
Tattoos: Wish can do T_T
Favourite Song: Pop Classic
Favourite Movie: Comedy, Action and Horror
Favourite Food: Sushi
Ice Cream: Don't like ice cream
Hobbies: Basketball
Drink (Alcoholic): Whiskey!!! But I promise a friend that I won't drink anymore ==
Drink (Non-Alcoholic): Yogurt
Most Missed Memory: The past
First Thought Waking Up: Sien ah!!! Go School!!!
Smoke: Hate smokers!!!
Get Along With Parents: I just have my mom and we sometimes argue but I love my mommy
Believe in Love at First Sight: Not really
What Annoys You Most in a Person?: When you sleeping then someone disturbs you
Nick Name: Ah Ben
Favorite Animal: Dogs
Fears: The sea during the night
Last Law Broken: Driving without license
First Thing You Notice About Someone: Thier eyes and attitude
Hates: Backstabber.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

You ARE my everything.......

When we first fell in love
I thought that nothing could compare
To the magical romance
That you and I had come to share.

But as time passed, feelings deepened,
And our closeness grew
The romance turned into
A real and lasting love with you.

You care for me in all the ways
I want and need so much.
I’ve felt your warmth and tenderness
With every word and touch.

I know I can depend on you
For support and honesty,
That patient understanding
That you always give to me.

There’s a special kind of happiness
That only love can bring,
And I’ve found that happiness with you...
You are my everything.

Our Love.


I loved you and you loved me

both with strong hearts.

When I met you, i knew right then,

that this was where our love starts.

You are the one that keeps me walking

right here upon the ground.

The only thing that keeps me here,

is the love in you that I have found.

The way you.

The way you breath makes me calm

The way you speak makes me warm

The way you see right through me

You make me the man that I want to be

All these things I love about you,

But most of all is the way you love me,

'I love you' is all I want you to say,

You are perfect in every way.

Monday, May 11, 2009

I love you

Always wondering who's going to be the true love for me
who will be the one who loves me
i know now that you were meant to be mine
we are true love that lots of people can't find
i loved you from the first time i laid my eyes upon you
your first kiss, your first touch, our first time together meant so much
Sitting here now trying to write this poem,
you mean so much to me; you're my everything
there are no words that can explain how much i love you
today, tomorrow, each and every day.
by Your Girl Belleville

Loving You

i feel guilty
that i didn't love you
like you loved me
you wanted to be with me
and i drove you away
day after day
why? that is what i said
because at night it would all fade away
at day time i would dream
and at night
i would stop time
i was afraid that if i fell asleep
it would be my last dream of you and me
why did you come into my life?
and at this sertain time?
because it was meant to be
for you and me
by Adriana aka Shorty

I've Fallen in Love

Sorry I had to tell you this
But that is how it is
I hope you'll still be there'
Cause for you I really care
I just need to tell you what has happened
That might make things change all of a sudden
It might make you mad
But, please don't make me feel bad
You have been a very special friend to me
But that is what I no longer see
Since I no longer consider you as a friend
But, try to understand that our friendship was bound to end.
For, I see you in a different way
And this is what I have to say
This is very true
Because... I've fallen in love with you
by Cathy a.k.a Babylove

Reaching For The Stars

My dreams I have continued to pursue
Up high I tried to reach all the stars in view
You stood by me all the way through
Gave me hope that a better future will ensue
Kept me grounded when too high I flew
Urged me on when hopelessness grew
Now I believe dreams can come true
Because in my life there is you.

A Fear

I’m trying not to fall in love again
Been hurt once and can still remember the pain
Struggled all the way to stay sane
Fought thru’ despair to push away the rain
For the sun to emerge and brighter days to reign
No more love but a life that was simple and plain.

Then you appeared and told me I have everything to gain
Because you love me and your love will remain
I want to trust you and let my heart attain
A kind of happiness with you that can sustain
Thru’ all the ups and downs, no matter the strain
But it’s hard to let go of this fear that all would be in vain

Saturday, May 9, 2009

My Heart Still Beats For You. I Love You~

I Love You:

I never knew you,

You were just another friend,

but when I got to know you,

I let my heart unbend.

I couldn't help past memories,

that would only make me cry,

I had to forget my first love

and give it another try.

So, I've fallen in love with you,

and I'll never let you go,

I love you more then anyone,

I just had to let you know.

And if you ever wonder why,

I don't know what I'll say,

but I'll never stop loving you,

each and everyday.

My feelings for you will never change,

just know my feelings are true.

Just remember one thing.........

I really Love You!!!

This poem is for you, sweet love of mine.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

I'm feeling about you. But I'm confuse too...

Tell me u love me, even if its just for awhile,
I know that it can make me smile,
because deep in my heart I truly know,
the feelings I have for you I will never let go.
I love you every since from the start,
The feeling then and now is still the same,
I'll feel something warm deep in my heart,
It happen every time when I hear your name,
You're always on my mind,
So I stare from one conner and just look at you,
Because a girl like you is hard to find,
No one else could make me happy like the way you do.
With this, I would like to say that I love you....

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

The saddest song I heard for me (蒲公英的约定 Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding)

The dandelion next to the fence in primary school
It was a scenery that had flavour in my memory
Taking an afternoon nap, cicada noise comes from the playground
After how many years, it still sounds good.
Fold up the dreams into a paper airplane and send it as a letter
Because we can't wait for that meteor
Throwing the coin that decides fate seriously
Yet I don't know where I can go
A promise made when growing up together
It's so clear
I believe it since we made a pinky swear
We said we would go on holiday together
It is nowadays yourOnly wilful persistence
In the corridor we stand as punishment and have our hands slapped
Yet we pay attention to the dragonfly by the window
Wherever I go you will follow very closely
Lots of dreams are waiting to done.
A promise made when growing up together
It's so clear
I believe it since we made a pinky swear
We said we would go on holiday together
It is nowadays your
Only wilful persistence
A promise made when growing up togetherIt's so sincere
The one time I can't stop chatting to you about
And I already can't tell the difference
Whether you are friendship or love I missed out on

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I would say this to her

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.